12 hrs to go

The assessement is this Thursday. 08:30-16:30. Four or Five exercises based on five competencies - managerial, social skills, communication skills, analytical, and methodical skills.

Fortunately there is no interview so I don't have to prep/stress for that.

My task is simple, show up, read the instructions, plaster on a fake smile (be positive), and try and act like the manager I really am lol.

It's hard to do, believe it or not. I do it every day, but put me in a roleplay situation and it becomes an act. I am never natural.

Just gotta be myself.

Yesterday, some of the other managers kindly organised a quick get together to try and help each other. Despite what the flaws I often see in them (in everyone) they are really a great bunch of people, and the business could do a lot worse.

We talked about possible reports for the analytical exercises. Went right over my head (whoosh!) - and I am supposed to be the analyst for our contract lol

Then I did a quick sample of a presentation for them, showing how to structure it. Feedback: authoritative tone, but sounded bored/boring. That's my natural tone baby!!

Anyways, despite their good intentions, I was falling asleep, and I don't wanna think too much about it otherwise I'll start to stress and panic.

I am concerned that I have done zero research into the matter- but I have always been, and probably always will be like this. I have no motivation what so ever.

My life needs something to fight for.

Anyway, it's the last word on the subject because I will be too stressed tonight. And Liverpool are playing, which lately is a nightmare to endure too.

Thursday, I am going to try and finally go see Jeff play. I always say this, and never go. But I'll be in a suit and hopefully the adrenalin will be flying. If you are one of the scousers on here (hell, or someone who likes to travel on a whim), check out his profile and then go see. He's really good.

But then again... we all know I'll be on here whinging